Bs 155. Walked 2 mile.

Blood sugar 202 after breakfast. Got hair done. Looks great!

BS 168. Ate seafood buffet. Crablegs. Shrimp rice etc. Ate too much. Not too happy with myself right now.

Exercise: I just walked over 2 miles with Precious and Scooter. It was funny because when we were almost home we saw Stanley and Itty Bitty, our cats, waiting at the end of the road. They were waiting for us to get back! They ran back home with us the rest of the way like dogs would. They're so cute! Going to drink a big glass of water and go take a shower. Feeling really good about things right now. God certainly gave me a wonderful day today, he must be very exceedingly fond of me to give me something so perfect! Feeling his love through and through.

Blood Sugar: 168. I think it's because I ate spaghetti around 9:30 pm when I got home from work. I didn't really exercise yesterday because I had a sore on my foot from the pedicure I got. I think they cut me with the razor thing but I put ointment and a bandaid on it last night. It feels much better today.

I did great with my eating yesterday and plan to do the same today. I also slept WITHOUT TYLENOL PM for the first time in 2 years I think! Woo HOO!

When I got home last night from work, my daughter, Sarah, had cleaned the entire house. She had enlisted the help of Kati and Laura too. They are all too sweet! The kitchen was shining and all the house was dusted, vacuumed, and smelling terrific! What a wonderful sight when I came home.

I'm happy about some changes at work. Glad that everything should be looking up now.

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I got here at 12. Reading jeffrey Deaver's Roadside Crosses. A great book about a seriel killer who is putting crosses out BEFORE he kills someone! Pret

Just had salad for lunch. It was yummy. Stomach a little upset though. Maybe from all the fiber I'm eating?
Work is so boring. Not a single call since

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wer because I'd just start eating bad again soon. I told her she needed to us positive reinforcement and not be so negative. She finally said she was pro

me something for these horrible things.

When I took Laura to school today she was soooooo cranky! She said she wasn't proud of my blood sugar being lo

Sitting in Dr waiting room having massive hot flash!!! I hate these things! My face is sweating like I've run a mile! Hopefully he'll be able to give

Day 2 of Journey

Blood sugar - 166. GREAT START! I'm excited to be going to the doctor today to get my labs done. I did great yesterday with what I ate. I had cereal and lowfat milk for breakfast, a salad for lunch and a salad for supper. I walked on my lunch break around the parking lot. I seem to be much more calm and for that I'm really glad!

Ate a salad of lettuce, tomatoes, peppers, boiled eggs, sunflower seeds, cucumbers, and balsamic vinagrette dressing. SO yummy!!

Blood sugar 178. Taking Laura to school then I'll call Dr. W and schedule appt to see him this week. I'm changing from my current doctor because she doesn't open until 10am. I need to be in and out of the doctor's office before 11am when I go because of my new work schedule. I also have to pickup my prescriptions from Ingles pharmacy. I hope Dr. Harding agreed to renew my prescriptions without me seeing her. I didn't take my blood pressure medicine last night and I worry that it might make my blood pressure rise.

I plan to eat only fruits and veggies today, no processed food at all. I'm praying that God will give me the strength to do this because it is the only way I can succeed.

Time for bed. Start a new schedule tomorrow. It's better than what I have been working which had no weekends off. Now I'll be 12p-9p M-F. Either way it kindof stinks. Just glad to have a job when so many people are out of work.

Didn't actually eat supper. Had about 1/2 cup of grits because that's all I could really stand. I haven't felt too great since my son, James, told me that he and his girlfriend are moving out next Friday. I didn't really appreciate the way he let me know. It hurt my feelings but I'm sure he just didn't know how to approach it with me. He knows I don't want him to leave yet. I just don't think he is ready. He's 22 but he has about a year to go before he isn't an apprentice any longer. I just want him to stay home until he is truly ready and has his finances all in order.

At least I didn't go fix a pan of brownies or eat a pint of ice cream. I handled this pretty well by just eating the grits for supper. I don't understand why my appetite is affected by my emotions so much. It's just ridiculous!

Just walked about 2 miles with Laura. We took Scooter and Precious. It was a refreshing time and I really enjoyed the time with my baby girl.

In The Beginning

Today is Sunday, April 25, 2010. This is the first day of my healing plan. I am 48 years old, am married, and have three children. I work as a sales representative for a major pest control company. I'm on the telephone all day and I rarely get any exercise.

I am sick and in horrible shape. I have diabetes type 2, high cholesterol, high triglycerides, and high blood pressure. I weigh 223 pounds today and I hope this is the last time I will be able to say that I weigh that much.

My youngest daughter is 16 years old and she worries about me all the time. She is so frustrated with me and I understand why. I know that she's concerned about me having a heart attack or not being around. I really want to take that worry away from her. It isn't fair for her to be so filled with anxiety due to my lack of self control.

I plan to try to keep this blog updated often with the steps to my "recovery". I know that is a strange way to put it but I really feel as if that is the best word to describe this process. My body is sick. I made it that way due to my stupidity. That's right, stupidity, not ignorance. I knew every step of the way what I was doing!!!! I know what to eat and what not to eat. I know about portion control. I know that I need to exercise. I have just chosen to not do those things. I'm not sure why but hopefully I will be able to figure out my motivations as I go along.

I will post my labs each time that I have them done. I'm supposed to check my blood sugar twice a day so I will put those numbers on here as well. My food intake will be recorded online and I'll also put information regarding pitfalls and challenges.

I am a Christian who firmly believes that God is with me all the time. I have the Holy Spirit within me and he will be the force that keeps me firm and pushes me along this path. I know that God wants me to be healthy and he wants more than anything to see me feeling better. I also know that he cares very much for me and that he is extremely fond of me as a person. He is the one who will provide the healthy choices and the self-control that I will need to stay away from poor choices.

I plan to stay far away from fast-food. I do know that has been one of my downfalls for years. I realized recently that I didn't even really like fast-food, it was just a habit to eat it. With that in mind it shouldn't be difficult to stay away. I just have to remember to pack my lunch and not allow myself to get to that frantic, panicky hungry place where I will settle for anything to eat. I know I can do this and I will make sure that this time I succeed. I have to.